Who Are You When No One Is Watching?

by Graphic Nature

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Josh Crowe This album left me speechless. After it ended, I just sat there in a haze.
What I love about Graphic Nature is that they pull no punches. Every track pulls from different genres to create this melting pot of dynamics and textures that breathe life into the tone of the piece. Harvey's lyrics are so raw and sincere that you truly feel like you're on the emotional rollercoaster with him. I feel seen and heard by this album.
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1.	Who Are You? 00:36	info	buy track
2.	Locked In 03:10	lyrics	buy track
So this is how it ends? Sometimes I get so scared about this and the things that are not there How can I think when I’m trying my best to survive the monotonous day to day Am I still here? Can you hear me motherfucker am I still here? I’m beginning to count down the days that I realised, I’m still alive Yeah I’m feeling decadent I’m getting rid of the shit You won’t try to conquer me I’ll fight back cause I know what I believe I know now that I’m losing the plot everything that I’ve seen is just an empty grave Just an empty grave I can’t go on with the thought that one day I’ll be out of here Fading into the nothin with every no one mother fucker How can I let it be me? I can’t live with the thought that one day I’ll be out of here Nah, not me Sometimes I think that I will be another name for them to see on the front page of the news that they consume No, not me Fuck, I ain’t goin nowhere Not me So now you’re locked in, to the sounds of the 404 So are you locked in? Now I’ve got your attention are you locked in? I still got shit to say but you ain’t getting rid of me Not today Yeah I’m a little fucked up but I got so much to say Mentally deranged Who gives a fuck So now you’re locked in, to the sounds of the 404
3.	Blinded 04:08	lyrics	buy track
As I sink into my own lies I’m finding it hard to find purpose I feel rejected by everyone As I sink into my own lies Would you still be here If I had something else to offer Or nothing at all? I want to hide myself away Away from everyone I know You say it’s fine But I’ve got the scars to show Cause I don’t know What I’m worth To anyone Fuck I try to say the words but they’re not coming to me I wanna scream the words but they’re not coming to me Oh fuck I’m finding it hard to find purpose I feel rejected by everyone As I sink into my own lies I can’t even think what I offer I don’t even know what I’m meant to do with the days that I’ve got left on this earth Someone tell me What am I supposed to do How am I supposed to act I can’t see the value in anything I can’t even keep up with the lies I tell myself, cause every damn time I open up I’m met with those eyes It kills me I can’t see this Through any other lense Than I have seen with my own two eyes It blinds me Blinds me Nah wait I overthink every little thing that I’ve said to anyone that’s out of my circle And I’ll drag myself down With the fucking guilt As I sink into my own lies I cant even begin to fathom the idea Of having any fucking clue What I’m supposed to do I don’t even know what I’m worth I’m sinking How can I be anything different If I can’t find me when I’m sinking It blinds me I’m sinking
4.	Human 03:44	lyrics	buy track
Gimme a fucking chance To ignite the flame for them My intrusive thoughts are winning again And I’m questioning my loyalty Cause I’ll leave you all behind When my mind begins to slip Into a process that is so destructive So destructive I need to change My selfish ways I need to mend the broken people that I have enslaved Cause I am lost In my own mind It’s like I’m living with a purpose that I can’t find Yeah Can I be free? Yeah Can I be free? Cause I’m a different human When this kicks in Oh I’m a different human Just let me in It’s getting harder and harder to keep a straight face And I’ll do it again When my mind begins to slip Into a process that is so destructive So destructive I’m being tested By something For my loyalty And I know that I can’t win Anything Cause I’ve tried so hard To paint a picture of the perfect mother fucking man Now I’m down and out I had my secrets now the truth is out for all to see Teach me the answer to my problems Manipulating my way through life I know there’s something out there for me To see It doesn’t mean it has to end this way for me Cause I’m a different human when this kicks in Cause I’m a different human, just let me in So go ahead test me Test me And I’ll take and I’ll take til there’s nothing left And I’ll take and I’ll take til there’s nothing fucking left And I’ll take and I’ll take til there’s nothing left And I’ll take and I’ll take So test me
5.	Something I'm Not 03:25	lyrics	buy track
You know there’s something I want Something, you gave it to me This kind of act has a price But I’d do it for free I’d do it for free Cause you hate And you take My fucking energy Away From this place I used to love myself But now I don’t know Where I stand I hope you meet your end I used to think, That kind of shit won’t happen to me I used to think about all the things I wanted to be I used to dream I used to feel I used to think that all my heroes were real And now it’s gone I used to be a confident son of a bitch And I would live my life as every 30 year old did Maybe it’s the substance abuse But yeah I got along fine before I ran into you I’ve never wanted to harm another person I just wanted to see you bleed Cause I changed on that day Yeah I changed on that day Because you hate And you take My fucking energy Away From this place I used to love myself But now I don’t know Where I stand (I hope you meet your end) I wouldn’t think That this thing Would’ve affected me Like this A mistake But now I’m sinking in The hate That I feel For this man I hope you meet your end I was never that person I was never that man But you turned me into something that I never want to look at again Never Never again And I’ll fucking hate you til the day that I die I’ll never Never Never Be like you Never Never Never Be like you You tried to take my everything away from me But you can’t I hope you meet your end I used to think, That kind of shit won’t happen to me I used to think about all the things I wanted to be I used to dream I used to feel I used to think that all my heroes were real And now it’s gone
6.	Breathe 03:01	lyrics	buy track
Yeah I’m waiting for the day That you turn, that you turn And you walk away I’m always vigilant But these constant reminders are killing me I always think the worst About the people that are with me on the fucking streets Does it get easier I know you’re following me This kind of fear never leaves (Yeah) So help my broken mind I just can’t see a fucking thing without being confined I think I’m crumbling These thoughts are creeping in I’m waiting for the day That you turn, that you turn And you walk away I’m always vigilant But these constant reminders are killing me I always think the worst About the people that are with me on the fucking streets Does it get easier I can’t cope I’m screaming from the inside out I can’t breathe My lungs have given up I try to find a way to breathe But I’m running out of time Each time I try to get some air It’s taken from me And I can’t hold on I can’t hold on If everyday wasn’t the same I think I’d be just fine Yeah I’m fucking terrified I don’t know i’ll make it home, make it home alive Yeah I’m fucking terrified I don’t know if I’ll make it home I’m scared to die Cause I’m destined to never live I’m walking scared day to day What kind of life is this? I’m waiting for the day That you turn, that you turn And you walk away I’m always vigilant But these constant reminders are killing me I always think the worst About the people that are with me on the fucking streets Does it get easier? Does it get easier?
7.	Session24. 02:18	info	buy track
8.	N.F.A 01:43	lyrics	buy track
You thought I was done but yet I’m still standing You walk tall and hold your head so high and I wonder why Cause you’re just the same as every person I’ve come by To think that shit affected me so much I’d rather die Than let your actions keep a hold of my life again Tell me something How does it make you feel? Do you feel alive? (Does it get better and better and better) Each time you act the fool Cause I ain’t playing you mother fucker See it through I ain’t got long on this earth But I’m making damn sure Cause when it’s my time to go You’re going down with me So don’t gimme that shit It’s too fucking late You made your bed and now it’s time to die in it You walk tall and hold your head so high And I wonder why You’re fucking with the wrong one And even if you change your ways, you’re still a fucking rat I ain’t done with you so you ain’t going nowhere today So don’t gimme that shit It’s too fucking late
9.	Fractured 03:42	lyrics	buy track
So let me tell you a tale about a kid who’s fucked up just like me Content with his madness Fucked up just like me Now he’s thinking If I’m alone then why is everyone mad at me? Content with his sadness Why is everyone mad at me? I still think of the times when everything felt so relentless Now I just work on the times when I felt so fucking helpless So now he’s failing in class and his mood swings are getting the best of him He knows he’s not like the rest of them Never cared about fitting in Constantly falling behind Trying to work out his mind So many questions that he just can’t get a fucking answer to This Is What I can’t cope with This Is What I can’t cope with So let me tell you a tale about a kid who’s fucked up just like me Content with his madness Fucked up just like me Now he’s thinking; if I’m alone then why is everyone mad at me? Content with his sadness Why is everyone mad at me? I don’t understand, why am I so isolated? Fuck Help me feel Help me feel Help me feel fucking normal Help me feel I can’t sleep I can’t eat Til I know whats wrong with me No matter how many times I’ve put up with this shit you’ll never get rid of me Just tell me what’s real cause right now this shit don’t make sense to me Just because you act different Doesn’t make you a joke You’re still a crazy mother fucker they just don’t understand you They say your wires are crossed I say I’m wired the same They say you come across wrong But this shit’s all in my brain Yeah yeah It’s all in my brain Yeah yeah This shit don’t make me insane So let me tell you a tale about a kid who’s fucked up just like me Content with his madness Fucked up just like me Yeah Why is everyone mad at me What Why is everyone mad at me Fuck
10.	Low 03:05	lyrics	buy track
How am I supposed to grow when I’ve never been this low? How was I supposed to know That I’d face this on my own How am I supposed to grow when I’ve never been this low? How was I supposed to know That I’d face this on my own It’s funny how I used to think rock bottom was tough But this is so much worse You think it’s not so bad Until it happens to you Now I’m stuck with my own guilt I’m being drowned by my own life But I’m the only one around who can save me Dragged down by my own life I’m the only one around who can save me Sometimes I think that shit would be better If I was still fucked out of my head Higher than I could even know How am I supposed to grow? I can’t even function on my own I’ve never been this low How was I supposed to know? I can’t do this on my own Cause I’m afraid what I’ll become My whole world has come undone And I’m scared what I’ll become I can’t do this on my own I used to think rock bottom was tough But this is so much worse You think it’s not so bad Until it happens to you Now I’m stuck with my own guilt I’m being drowned by my own life But I’m the only one around who can save me Dragged down by my own life I’m the only one around who can save me How am I supposed to grow I’ve never been this fuckin low I hate myself Yeah How am I supposed to grow I can’t function on my own I’ve never been this fucking low But I’m grateful for every day that I wake up That doesn’t mean that I don’t fucking dread the outcome
11.	To The Grave 04:07	lyrics	buy track
Take it away Down to my grave Take it away So I can rest Dare to dream With all that’s happened to me? Just let me tell you that I’ve always had a place in my head So give it to me End me Confidence You go and take it away So I can sit and overthink about the shit that I did So take it from me End me So tell me When did getting older become so tough Cause I refuse to leave I’ve fucking had enough Fuck Take it away Down to my grave Take it away So I can rest I’m feeling dizzy again I’m still locked up, stuck in my old ways So just take it away So I can rest I should’ve taken the long way Vigilant That’s what they tell me to be But how can I be when it feels like there’s a price on my head? Pay it for me Pay it Dare to dream With all that’s happened to me? Just let me tell you that I’ve always had a place in my head Give it to me End me Take it away So let me open up this wound cause I need to heal myself from all of this pain From all of this pain I think my life is a dream With all that’s happened to me But let me tell you that I’ve always had a place in my head Just when I thought I was safe You go and take it away So I can sit and overthink about the shit that I did Now I’m full of hate Screaming “I have lost my way” And I don’t think that I’ll ever find my way back Now I’m full of hate
12.	When No One Is Watching 04:18	lyrics	buy track
I wanna smash my face against the wall for even thinking bout it It’s not me and I know So just forget about it Just let me understand why I’m having thoughts that I ain’t had before I need to know before it’s too late So let me dwell in the madness That’s in my head and put an end to the bastard Just give me one more day And I swear I’ll never think like this again I promise I’m not lying I’m trying my hardest I promise I’m not lying I’m trying my hardest Am I? I wanna smash my face against the wall for even thinking bout it It’s not me and I know But when I’m gone they won’t even notice There’s only so many times that I can fake a smile But when I choose to show face They reply “man, it’s been a while” (Man, it’s been a while) (It’s been a while) How can I control the thoughts in my head When I can’t even face the day on my own It’s fucking hard to exist Was there something I messed up? Something I missed? Cause I’m telling you man These thoughts have taken over me Make me see Make me breathe Make me live Make me live I’ve forgotten how to be happy It’s not that I don’t remember It just not something I can find Cause I don’t know what’s happened The best I can do is show face and fake a smile It’s too fucking hard to exist Everything is against me and I feel guilty for feeling this way Maybe it’s for the best I pushed everyone away Maybe it’s for the best Maybe it’s for the best And so The real answer is I don’t wanna be here anymore I’ve pushed everyone away that I love Maybe it’s for the best that I go That I
13.	For You 04:48	lyrics	buy track
For so long I’ve been giving myself a hard time And I’ve been Neglecting Every thing in my life Cause I’m too proud (Man, it makes me sick) (Man? it makes me) I wanna be Able to talk about What’s going on When my head is in the dirt Instead I just Smile and say I’m fine To all the people that Give me their time I’m getting overwhelmed With this shit Oh man It’s fucking tough (Yeah) For me to speak about You’ve done enough For me so far Just leave me alone Can’t you see what it’s doing to me? I’m getting choked up So take note I got it locked away In here I told you man I’m doing just fine on my own So step back For so long I’ve been giving myself a hard time And I’ve been Neglecting Every thing in my life Cause I’m too proud Of myself To speak up When I’m suffering Man it makes me sick Look at you Man it makes me sick To my guts Look what it’s done to me I’m breaking down cause I need someone to listen to me Fuck you You’re what I wanna be I’m seeing people that are so much stronger than me How do you do it? Enjoying everything? It took a lot for me to leave the fucking house again So what I’m saying is I’m fucking struggling I just need I just need I need help to get back the pieces I lost along the way I just need someone to tell me it’s okay I’m still the same person I’m still the same person I just need to find him again I’ve started to break free, I’ve started to end My self suffocation is my only friend The path that I walked on Is showered in hope Cause I’ve carried this weight on my shoulders for so long And It’s beginning to drag me down I let one bad day in my life Define who I am For a whole year I’d become what I’m not Cause I’m not what I think I’ve pushed you away But it’s not my fault It’s taken me too long to figure it out Cause I’m starting to find my way Out of the darkness Cast on me I told myself I just need to make it Through “One More Day”

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released July 12, 2024

Written by Graphic Nature
Performed by Graphic Nature
Produced and mixed by Sam Bloor
Mastered by Grant Berry

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Who Are You When No One Is Watching?

Jul 2024
AMWTD.EXE

Oct 2023
A Mind Waiting To Die

Feb 2023
Killing Floor

Nov 2022
White Noise

Sep 2022
Into The Dark

Jul 2022
new skin

Feb 2022
leech

Jul 2020
de[in]fect

Feb 2020
mortal fear

Nov 2019
grit

Sep 2019

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